Phase 10

Today has been pretty great because for the first time in like forever I didn't have to do anything. I slept in late and just sat around and watched Lifetime movies all day. It was awesome. After lounging around for about 5 hours I decided to be somewhat productive since I have TONS of homework to do over the break. I did a little homework, but soon decided that was enough of that haha I can be so lazy sometimes and I love it :)

Casey and Josh playing Sudoku

Later tonight my wonderful sister, mother, and I are going to Mrs. Sissy's (Josh's mom) house to play Phase 10 and I absolutely cannot wait! The other night we stayed up until 1:30 in the morning finishing up that game. Whenever we have game night over there we always have a blast. I specifically remember one Christmas Josh got a board game called Blokus from his grandparents. I am pretty sure that his grandparents sent it to him because they thought he would hate it, but ironically he and we loved playing it. That'll show them to try and send lame gifts again! haha For about a good 4 months we played that game almost every weekend. We would stay up so late and be so delirious we just wouldn't know what we were doing. I'm sure you all have had this experience before. You just stay up so late that you randomly start giggling at the dumbest things. Well, this happened quite frequently, especially because Josh didn't like to hold in his farts and thought it was funny to see us choking on the deadly fumes. He would just laugh and do his funny little giggle and then that would make all of us start laughing. I have to say that game night will never be quite that funny again, but we still have so much fun even with him gone. I am so ready to kick some butt at Phase 10 tonight!

So earlier while I was lounging around, I started to think about how mature I feel. I am still a teenager, yet I feel so much older. I feel like after Josh's death I had to grow up fast and deal with everything. I had to stay strong for my family and friends. I guess part of it is that anyone my age and even younger shouldn't have to lose their best friend. You never really think about something like that happening when you are little. You see most people dying at an old age after having a wonderfully long life. Josh didn't get the opportunity to live that long life, but I know that he lived his life wonderfully. He took every day he was given to live his life the way he wanted. He didn't care what other people thought about what he did; he did it because he wanted to and nothing was going to stop him. I admired that most about him, because I have come to realize that I don't cherish every day like I should. There are so many days, like today, that I haven't accomplished anything with my life. In a sense I am wasting those precious days that God has given me. From this day forward I have decided to try to make a difference every day of my life because I don't know how much life I have left to live. Of course this is easier said than done. Maybe with this new feeling of maturity, I can better accomplish this. And I hope that all of you try to do the same thing because it only takes one person to make a difference and start the chain reaction. Josh made a huge difference for so many people, for the whole nation. So, let him be the start of the chain and let's all make the world a better place. Peace. Love. Semper Fi.